First day, first paper, Engineering Mathematics 1
Nafuiaha keeps saying that my Maths is easy. And yeah, I admit that. I feel it is even easier than my IB maths which was a killer subject to me last time. Maths was an enemy to me. And now, it is not. I hope it will stay being my friend at later stages. The thing to say today, first, it is my first day of exam. I was so nervous till for the 2 hours of the exam time, my emotion was not stable and I was kinda shivering. I couldn't stay calm. I kept asking for extra papers until the invigilator was giving me a hard stare to me while passing the papers. Haha. I think they were 10 additional pages which I asked and I only used 7 of them. As I checked the solutions I made, I found several mistakes which I knew at wrong. It didn't include the answers which I didn't know its wrong. Sigh...
My nervous feeling was end right after the invigilator announced the end time. I just felt calm after that, already being thankful to Allah for giving me those efforts. Once I walked out the building, my mind suddenly thought of one answer. I think I was wrong at putting the constant. I walked home with mixed feeling. The possibility to get full marks is now at the end of the world. And true, it is true that I got that constant wrong and my 100% is gone now.
I do hope that I would still get a first class mark for the paper and overall. I hope my other answers are all correct and can support for a higher mark. Maybe I'm too ambitious but it suits with the level of difficulty the paper has. Whatever it is, Tawakkal to Allah. InsyaAllah. Amin...
2nd day or Cloudy day = Chemistry
Okay, let us start with the heading. Why I said it was a cloudy day because I didn't expect the questions to come out like that. I was blaming myself for not reading all the three components in detail yet spotting and focusing on certain topics which I'm not supposed to do. Biochemistry part was easy, but as I don't have strong basic from a-level, I couldn't answer that question. Surface chemistry, OMG, how on earth could I know the assumption which should be given when deriving the equation. So, I wrote the assumptions for other equation, I hoped it fitted a bit. Hope so. Then worst component is the analytical chemistry. Ok, I spotted acid and bases would come out, I did a lot of problem sheets on this, and yet it didn't come out, even single question. Once I turned the pages, I was like, WTH are these, I couldn't really do the answers confidently. all knowledge that I had are inadequate to answer all those question. But I have no choice. I have to answer 3 question out of 5. So I chose, 1 surface chemistry, 1 rate, 1 analytical chemistry. They were killing me. 3 hours of period seemed too short for me as i have to draw 4 graphs.
Plus, my lab partner who was sitting in front of me finished his exam early and that added my nervous. Even till the last of the second me being in that hall, my feeling was such in a mess.
I couldn't cry or mourn, there were no words to picture my emotion after the exam. What I do now is keep praying and Tawakkal for the result. My other friends say, just focus on next papers, forget the past,let gone be bygone. So yeah, next is statistics. And look at what I do, Facebook. I need to face a book. So, I have to stop.
3rd day = 'gelabah' day. Statistics.
I was doing statistics in an hour and half. There were four questions to be answered and I just managed to answer all when the invigilator said "the time is now end". I didn't know whether my answer were made sense or not, whether I calculated right or not.
What I know now, the answers are there to be marked and I do hope that Elaine will give me a good mark. At least, my rainbow up till now still have more than 5 colors. InsyaAllah.
4th day of exam = a big failure. It was transfer processes.
Let me explain the components first. It has mass transfer, heat transfer and Fluid flow. I said this as a big failure as I didn't perform very well today. Was it because I was overconfident as what my friend said, or was it because I didn't finish studying, or was it because I was just with no luck in that hall? I didn't know how to use the value, didn't know where to put the constant. Everything I answered was back and forth.
I hope the examiner would go linean to me. I really do hope so. I'm not going to ask for first class, enough for me if they would give me a better mark which I should deserved looking to the efforts I put before. I kept praying that Allah would always help me, I think He is now testing me whether I'm strong enough or not to stay on sense. Was I blurred? Or did I really know nothing on that topics? I did study but I guess it was not smart. My sense went wrong even after I went off the hall. Everything seemed empty. I followed where my foot went. I was so depressed. Ya Allah, please give me a good mark. I don't want to fail and I don't want to disappoint anyone. Please help this person to stay on sense and be humble. Amin...
Last exam for the first year = Numerical method.
My last paper went quite funny as I was only sure to answer only half of the questions. I 'goreng' the rest and I felt good. Haha.
As this was the last paper, and I had a week gap before sitting for this exam, I did not really care even after the exam finished. The world seemed beautiful as there was no torture left afterward. Yes, there is something big that I should worry about, which determine my future, but I just let it to Allah to decide. I've made my efforts, I hope Allah will return it as worth as I should get.
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